Leave me alone

MARK!! I think I'm going to cry. You don't know how much I miss you. I love you so much. Why are you gone? MARK!!! Come back to me... please...please. My tear drops hit this paper and they will not bring you back, nothing will. WHY? WHY NOT? WHY WONT YOU COME BACK? I love you...Mark. You don't know how terrible it is here. Froyodor found my diary and he must have read it to all of the Hufflepuffs because RUBY KNEW ABOUT YOU!! She knew about how I didn't have any friends and she knew that you passed away. Do you have any idea? Mark... I miss you so much...I guess I'm getting ahead of myself... here it is. Mark. I walked down to the lake, I was going to practice for that Commercial so I wouldn't have to go home for the summer, and some of the hufflepuff girls were there. They were going to give Kaily a make over. I REALLY wanted to help. I love make overs, and I'm good at them. I was trying not to make it look like I wanted to help and it was sorta not going my way, then some girl came down when I called Ruby big nose and started telling me that I was stupid. I got really upset, I've been stressed out lately. Nathanial and I have a lot to worry about, the only difference is people GIVE HIM A BREAK. I just don't know what happened, one minute I was going to try and help with a make over, and maybe have some fun, the next we had our wands out. MARK. Why arn't you here for me now? You promised me that you would be! YOU PROMISED!! Mark, I don't even know if I will be able to look back and read this the page is so wet. MARK!!! I can't live without you, who is going to be here for me when I fall and when I don't know what to do? You were my ONLY friend, the only one. I can't believe your gone... maybe if I had come to grips with it sooner this wouldn't have happened. Ruby knows about you, and she isn't afraid to hit below the belt and use you against me. She is terrible. Mark I'm scared, I'm sad, I'm lonely. I need you, I need you to be here for me... please. My reputation is going to be ruined now, I'm going to have to pick a ton of fights just for people to think I'm THE Jessica Williams. I am a future death eater, and they will not discrase me! I am a follower! I am better then them! No matter what I must remember what you wanted. I did not chose this life, you did. When you died I knew I had to fullfill your dream to become a death eater and serve the dark lord. This is why I live, this is why I wake up in the morning. Mark. Why did you have to go? Please...please come back. How am I supposed to put up with these teachers and students? Valwood doesn't want me in his house. Corvis can't stand me. O'Brennan doesn't like me. Froyodor is obsessed with my breasts. And I don't know the other teachers. Ruby and all of the Hufflepuffs are always intent on making me suffer, the ravenclaws too. The other future death eaters have deserted me, and even some slytherins don't like me. I can't talk to anyone but Jake, and what if he didn't like me? He is the only person I have grown attatched to since you brother. I just can't bear another loss. I don't know what else to say, I need to go cry some more. I just... I just don't understand why I can't be like the others. I need to be like you. You were strong. You were a pureblood slytherin, you were better then me. Brother, I will be what you were going to be. One day I will help your dream to come true. PLEASE WAIT FOR THAT DAY. I will be there in heaven with you then and everything will be fine. I only need to live for three more years and then I can stop. The protectors wont need me, the dark lord doesn't need me, Craven doesn't need me...and I don't know about Jake. I need to go, brother I love you. I really do, I'm so sad, and scared. I just don't know what to do. I can't let those girls think that I am scared, I can't. I need to keep my reputation. They have no idea how much it means to me. Aside from Jake it's all I have left, my reputation, and your dreams that I will fullfill. I love you Mark, with all my heart and soul I love you. Please wait for me...Mark...please...I love you. I really do. I just... I can't live without you...Mark....
Your scared sad sister Jessie.